Friday, April 26, 2013

Not that I need to explain myself, but...

Several years ago I created a Twitter account to follow along with the "behind the scenes" news on some of my favorite shows and follow some of my favorite artist.  In the past year or so as Twitter has become more popular and my friends have gotten accounts I have had more personal interactions.  Some of my friends children whom I am close to, realized it was my account and followed me and recently I have had a few more of my children's peers follow.  My account does not have my picture or my name, not because it is anonymous but just simply because I wanted to.  Twitter can be a place for very "off the cuff" remarks as opposed to Facebook, in my opinion.  And I can be a very "off the cuff" kind of girl.  Anyway, back to my point... because I am not private anyone can see it and until today it had a link to my blog. 

I created this blog several years ago at the prompting of some girlfriends.  My blog is quite simply the way we talk when we get together and the way we talk when we get together has made for some sincerely fun, honest and endearing friendships.  On the rare occasion I do blog, it is because something has triggered a thought and for those of you who have read the posts I can have some wayward thoughts.  I am an adult.  I am married.  I am over 40.  Here's a shocker for you....  I have sex.  My friends have sex.  We talk about sex... and that has made some of us very good at sex, so I hear.  I am sure some of you are like where in the heck is this coming from. Well, someone sent me a twitter post that they thought could be about me.  It said "If you're a mom and you blog about sexual activity, you might wanna reconsider all the shit talking you do about others."  It could be about me since there have been 33 new page views just today.  Now I don't know this person and she doesn't know me because if she did she would know that I don't "wanna" reconsider anything.  The assumed "shit talking" I do, I can only assume are my "off the cuff" twitter opinions. I call it as I see it.  And if you have proven yourself to be someone I don't care for by hurting someone I do, then I probably have an opinion. I don't follow people I don't like, I really don't fool with people I don't like.  Again, if you have read my entire blog, you would learn quite a bit about me and why I feel the way I do about many things.  I am who I am.  I make no apologies for that.

There are many thoughts I keep to myself (believe it or not) for the sake of a loved one.  If I had no restraints on me, I could really provide you with some interesting creeping material.  My restraints are self imposed because of the people I love that's why my stories never have any names not because I am hiding anything.  As I have said, through the years of learning about myself... "the ones I love and care about and who love and care about me get my effort.  Life is too short to waste that effort on the ones who don't." 

So, to that creeping young lady, you are still a child.  If you are lucky, you will have many years to grow up, learn about yourself and what you want out of life.  It won't happen in your teens, and probably not in your twenties, but it will happen.  Those friendships you think you have now, will be good memories but only a few, if you're lucky, will last you through marriage, becoming a parent, raising children, losing a parent and all the trials and joys that life will bring you.  If you are really lucky you will grow into a person who believes in herself and loves herself.  Maybe you will find a way to accept yourself, flaws and all. If you are wise, you will learn from your mistakes.  If not, you will always make them, you will always blame others and you will never be happy with yourself.  Either way people will always be "shit talking" because speaking from experience, it's always easier to fix others than it is yourself.  Good Luck to you! Bygones :)